Just Don't Understand...

Why is it that some people have to work soooo hard for everything that they have and are always having people bring them down and make it harder for them to acheive their goals, but people that don't care about anything or try hard at all have things handed to them on a silver platter..? I just don't understand why the world works that way. It isn't fair..yah I know "life isn't fair", but it truely isn't when you have someone who deserves something so much and has worked their butt off to get it only to have things thrown back into their face, to make them want to give up trying. Life pisses me off.

Plus, we had to go to the doctor a little over a week ago because Lucca wasn't able to swallow while eating, and the doctor told us it is just his reflux and it is just a "minor" setback, just up his medications...well it got better the first day and ever since then he has been absolutely miserable while eating, and nighttime is even more miserable. He gets into these crying/cramping fits that last (no exaggeration) at least 30 minutes of just screaming and kicking and cramping...I feel SOOO bad for him because no matter what I do I can't seem to ease his pain and it makes ME feel like I'm not a good mom. I want nothing more than to just take all his pain away, it is so pitiful seeing him like that. I called the doctor on Friday, and he never called me back so I called again this morning, only to hear that they would relay the message and he would call back. We will see if that happens. I am seriously thinking about taking Lucca to see a Pediatric GI specialist to see what the heck is going on. There is NO way that he "just has gas" ... I have tried mylicon, and little tummys gas relief..doesn't work. And I am tired of seeing my baby in pain.

Ok there is my rant for today. Hopefully tonight will be better.